i just made a taco salad

i'm running the ritzville golf course and grill all alone. and it makes me nervous. they think i am more capable than i am because they are just so desperate for a break. but i just made my first ever taco salad. and it looked good. cory said theyre really hard; we deep fry the tortilla to make a bowl. but it was fine. yay.

matt d and oly came to visit last night. we threw a party for spokane people who wanted to drive. it was fun. my gparents were out of town (to, of all places, walla walla. how ironic) and im house sitting for the house next door. so basically we had these 2 huge houses to party in. it was so fun. i was in the hot tub for an hour and a half. then some of us went to take a shower, which was hella funny. the best thing tho was that matt descoteaux has never been drunk but he was so close last night. he had to sit down to piss!! oly got a beautiful new car. i love getting new cars. so much FUN

i am frustrated because every time my phone rings i think its andy. its not cool when you are disappointed to see your best friends name on the screen. so not cool at all. i have never had this much conflicted emotion in my entire life. i hate him, i love him. i want to move on, i want to be with him for the rest of my life. i want to be mad, i want to forgive. i want him to call, i want him to never talk to me again. i am crazy about him, i am disgusted by him. that kind of conflict all in one person can't be healthy. i can tell you one thing though; the day that i meet justina i will be the biggest bitch ever. i will be inadvertently mean to everyone that crosses my path. i'm like a tornado of emotion. swirling about. HAAA name that movie! bet u cant. because it SUCKED. ya dont go see kicking and screaming. unless youre down for a good nap.